For so long Boy2 has been the most elusive character.....he arrived 13 days later than he was expected. I was 172 pounds, yes I know your jaw dropped; my pressure dropped and his heartbeat went faint moments before his birth. They say we come as close as possible to death when we give birth, how ironic is that. I know for a fact I may have died and come back that day, as pleasant of a pregnancy as it was ( my most by far); the delivery was difficult to say the very least.....but BOY was HE worth it. Both my mom and husband were present unlike with the others (can you say special). We should have stayed together, most of what ails our son begins with the end of US.
A straight roller coaster ride, the kind where you put your hands up and shout weeeee!!!!
My heart that beats on the outside of my body for sure, one of my 3 kindred spirits. We have had many "great" conversations, but the last few have been monumental; ones where I think the light bulb is flickering fast about to turn on permanently. He's always taken his time, and of course now will be no different....I worry constantly as he is the ONE that pushes the envelope, the buttons, and will push me in the spirit if I let him, sometimes we TUSSLE spirit to spirit.
HE is why I am thankful I bore no daughters, for seeing me in him is ENUFF. (there were no invites to graduation because we got cleared three days before...lol) I have always known who this little boy was, but the greatest quest is for him to know thyself...I ask the creator, the ancestors, and the universe for back up with the kind hearted man-child who can tame wild beast and quiet babies with his gentle soul.( the gifted that "hated" school) The Artist-writer who insists on trying to rap and is drawn to a life that does not suit him. Daddy I wish you were here to help me at this juncture, i dont have the answers, and I have soooo many questions that nobody can answer for me the way you would. Shine your light on them, enfold them in your spirit, cloak them in your wisdom...Selah
Boy2 WE LOVE YOU, WE'RE HERE DAD and I TOGETHER
I'm a MOM, Whats your super power?
My heart that beats on the outside of my body for sure, one of my 3 kindred spirits. We have had many "great" conversations, but the last few have been monumental; ones where I think the light bulb is flickering fast about to turn on permanently. He's always taken his time, and of course now will be no different....I worry constantly as he is the ONE that pushes the envelope, the buttons, and will push me in the spirit if I let him, sometimes we TUSSLE spirit to spirit.
HE is why I am thankful I bore no daughters, for seeing me in him is ENUFF. (there were no invites to graduation because we got cleared three days before...lol) I have always known who this little boy was, but the greatest quest is for him to know thyself...I ask the creator, the ancestors, and the universe for back up with the kind hearted man-child who can tame wild beast and quiet babies with his gentle soul.( the gifted that "hated" school) The Artist-writer who insists on trying to rap and is drawn to a life that does not suit him. Daddy I wish you were here to help me at this juncture, i dont have the answers, and I have soooo many questions that nobody can answer for me the way you would. Shine your light on them, enfold them in your spirit, cloak them in your wisdom...Selah
Boy2 WE LOVE YOU, WE'RE HERE DAD and I TOGETHER
I'm a MOM, Whats your super power?
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