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 December 20, 2024 Reclamation

The last four years have been extremely unsettling in my life, but I'm figuring out a little more every day about how to turn trials into triumphs. I am moving from feeling like I've had my dreams cracked over my head like a crystal vase to feeling like they are now well within my reach!

I thank my creator and my ancestors as I continue to pray for the restoration of my spirit, mind, and body, The healing of my family and myself, and, oh, the growth and development of Sage to be of sound mind, intellect, body, and spirit! 

I have spent the las 5 days literally homeless, 

Being Mommed by the OG

 When I came up with the title Mom-Me chronicles It was focuse on the 360 of this game

. While I mother I am also mothered, and hwile I now granmother my sons are being Grandmothered and my grand SUN is being mommed to the 3rd power!

Ya;ll might be slow so I'm going to let you catch up...lol

 Happy Birthday My Love!♎🌟💝🍾

So grateful for my 56 Orbit around the SUN! Grateful to have found so much joy and peace in year 55! Year 55 nudged me toward ta path of self discovery, saying yes to adventure and harnessing the power to create my own reality! A year where I honored my individuality and gained a strong sense of freedom! I HAD A BLAST ENDING MY YEAR!!!!

Year 56.

So what does the number 56 mean? Change and transformation, focus on creating balance, harmony and stability in your relationships and endeavors! WOW, I feel like so much change has already happened in my life in just one year! I guess it really does get better as you get older! Well I've been up since 5:15 in true Libra fashion planning and replanning my day, nope I'm not leaving for the Spa early for my bday sauna, and scrub as I had planned and no I'm still not sure if I want to get a message today or wait until next weekend,,,and yes they are at two different spots. What I am sure of is, no work, and everything I do TODAY is on my own terms! 

I'm a MOM...with a birthday, whats your SUPERpower?

 Wonderful weekend!

Thursday afterschool was a snugglefest with Sensational Sage! 

Friday… we spent the day inside painting and building Lego houses and then Uncle El grabbed his favorite nephew for a boys outing! I dipped out to happy hour with the youngest and his girlfriend. 

STAYED up until 3 being giddy like a teenage girl. Woke up late on Saturday because uh well the aforementioned…Watched TV played games built more Lego  houses and read books upside down…cause yeh I’m a toddlers dream…

Sunday breakfast with Momma and Sage and then dropped Sage at home…yes with snacks and clothes that smelled “April Fresh” IYKYK…Quick trip to Sephora, waterway refocus and to my favorite work hideaway…to write edit and map out my week….

Time freedom has become my new currency…fuq all that other the bullshit….now I can move forward with the plans I let unworthiness, pain and trauma hold me back from!!

I'm a mom with a big heart, kind soul and a potty-mouth...What's 

your superPOWER✨💞

I LOVE THIS ISH

Father's Day 2023 Was good! No, I'm not a father, but I had one, co-partnered with one, and made one. This Father's Day my suns carried on the tradition of their father by organizing and hosting an annual event that started in dad's basement as a gathering with a couple of friends and all of their sons. The event materialized into paintball every year for about 10 years, and then last year into a fun day and cookout!

I stopped by to support and present my husband-friend with some flowers (purple tulips in a mason jar vase), it has been said that black men get flowers one time if any in their lifetime and that is at their funeral.  WHY am I wired like this? I love the people I LOVE regardless. 

I'm a mom...who was a wife, What's your superPOWER?🎕     

April 2023

 In the ER with no Mr

I recently had a health scare...now that definitely sounds like OLS...(  a term I have crafted with the besties as old lady shit,  something we laugh at since turning 50...but on the super serious side

I have done what one should never do and that is  and that is ignore your body...for over 2 months I've had swelling in my right knee, and after an unfavorable Ortho trip and draining it flared back up. Of course I didn't use my insurance up before or immediately after resigning from my "good ass insurance having Job, that's too much like right". 

OK...OK back to the original story. After my usual Monday evening Mom's call I stood up and felt a very different and strange pain, had trouble standing and immediately said," I think I have a blood clot as I noticed the swelling had travelled to my calf and felt warm.  As I rushed to get dressed and head to Urgent Care, I thought "at 55 you are at the age where people lay down and don't wake up" I tabled that thought, took a deep breathe and moved with real intention. At urgent care, the NP assessed me and decided it may be a clot and I needed to go to an ER The deep breath I had taken earlier now turned into hot tears and panic, as the closest ER was 25 minutes away, I was alone, and I was in excruciating pain!!!

The response from my eldest was less than favorable as he instructed me to "keep him updated"  what TF when you were in the ER I left a whole date to rush to your side, but I'm the grownup here, well technically we both are. By the time I get there, I can't walk and have to get in a wheelchair to check in, "did I mention that I hate hospitals!!!!!!! Apparently I chose the most crowded night, and as I sat waiting for an ultrasound and bawling my eyes out my youngest Sun text that he is on his way, by now Husband-friend has interjected and demands to speak with the doctors, and tells me I don't have a blood clot because he's had them and this isn't not how they would respond....

After the ultrasound, I'm wheeled back down amongst the masses, and in walks a very nonchalant, lanky 6'3 frame 'hoodied' up, and I instantly feel a little better. After a hug, he asks if I have a charger because YES, the final game of the finals is happening...

In the time before Joshua arrived when I was sitting alone watching people with people, I thought and after everything and every person you have been to EVERY one else you end up in the ER alone thus the title, the piercing thought that I don't have a person becomes very real and all the bullshit I tell myself that makes it OKAY is just that B U L L S H I T! 

I have spent the better part of my life in so much service to others, and it has not been self-serving in ways that I also needed....

    I'M A MOM, A gENxER WHO LOVES HER PEOPLE....WHAT'S YOUR superPOWER?💝🌟🏥

If it was "It's not a sprint, its a marathon' were a person My face, my life would be the representation.

 So far this Sunday I have had meditation, stretching, lots of water (I'm tired of peeing😂) a nice book read, and coffee. I feel full, and as a I take a break to write ( reflect actually then a slight stress pause, refocus then write) I am reminded of the goodness of my life although I am keenly aware that many who know me see it as something to admire/pity and often say WTF...

I am lead to this thought...THE NEXT PHASE IS CALLED SEVERAL THINGS....

YOU got this, You have to go this leg alone (but you really aren't), Separation, Pulling back to go forward, Independent Villager, The Quiet Storm, Middle of the Road, Reclamation!!!

 It is called MINE, and MOST importantly I finally feel prepared💝📕☕

I'm a woman, what's your superPOWER